1. |
Losing My Mind
03:34
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Well i’m out here
and i’m searching
for things that I can’t find
I guess it’s stupid to tell you
‘cause you can’t read my mind
to know what’s out there
what’s missing
this list I can’t identify
it sits on the tip of my tongue
Day after day
I think I’m losing my mind
Day after day
remind myself i’m alright
Day after day
I wake up feeling like someone just pressed rewind
but I’ll keep looking i’m always looking
For an answer to the question
I never got quite right
Kept chasing circles, got sidelined
a moth right to a light
I’m such a sucker so uptight
I can’t just leave it be
or let it happen, I guess i’m no fun
oooo
Second chances
And a change of perspective
I hope that I do better this time
Burn the past just like a letter you wrote
In an old life hope I’m doing it right
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2. |
Better
04:08
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Call me your savior ‘cause I pay the bills
You wander without me, but I love you still
And if there was trust left that you didn’t kill
By the time you catch up with me, honey, I will.
Oh I don’t know
oh i don’t know
oh i don’t know
how to feel better
Put a new dress on and head outside
Try on new town, on it doesn’t fit right
Got messed up in something that never was mine
Couldn’t get myself caught, pray I get out of line
Oh i don’t know
oh i don’t know
oh i don’t know
how to be better
It’s a weight tied to your feet
It’s a spiteful agony
It’s a dark horse
that you bet
all the time on,
where do I go
When there’s nothing left to save
then I guess it’s just the same
Walk away when it’s all on the line
Tell me you love me, then push me aside
You had all I could offer, you’re not satisfied
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3. |
Keep the Light On
03:18
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I never wanted a fortress
I just wanted a home
To put my worries and failures
And make them not alone
Look for a hand reaching out
thought everybody knows
To keep the light on
I saw it coming in waves
thought it was low tide
I should be running for cover
‘cause it is high time
that I know better to be
A better friend to me
I’ll keep the light on
I guess we know it never is
the way we dreamed it to be
thought you’d be running back to me
But I was wrong
And I wonder if you think of me
The way you drift in my thoughts
I think I loved you too much
I’ll keep the light on
I won’t keep beating myself up
‘cause you never called
during the end of the world
I guess you were better off
I didn’t know I could be erased so easily
Still keep the light on
I guess we know it never is
the way we dreamed it to be
Thought you’d be running back to me
But I was wrong
And I wonder if you think of me
You’re in my thoughts so casually
I think I loved you too much
I’ll keep the light on
I won’t keep beating myself up
‘cause you never called
during the end of the world
I guess you were better off
But I know better to be
a better friend to me
I’ll keep the light on
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4. |
Overambitious
03:02
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I shouldn’t hold my breath
thinking I’m not any other
What did I think I had
where I’d keep running into your head
So selfish and senseless
this broken little heart of mine
Relentless can’t stop this
but I guess it’s time
Well it’s not like I wasn’t enough
was just a little too much
was just a little overambitious
You didn’t want to believe
what I always liked about me
I’m just a little overambitious
I never raised my voice
I’m still learning how to use it
And then there’s boys like you
whose voices echo all the rooms
Just ‘cause you’re talking
doesn’t mean that
you’ve got something to say
Relentless just stop this
‘Cause I’m not in your way
Well it’s not like I wasn’t enough
was just a little too much
was just a little overambitious
You didn’t want to believe
what I always liked about me
I’m just a little overambitious
I understood what you said
you told me what you wanted
Why would I think that it’s a lie
and now I lost myself in the crowd
found out you’re married now
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5. |
Call Your Mother
03:40
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Can we all stay quiet for once
Call our spades the same things so that we don’t give up
I don’t think we’ll meet God beating Her to the punch
We’re all looking for the same escape
huddled tightly in rooms just to listen to ways
we can get through this sad while the band we love plays
Call your mother
warn the cops
call anyone that you forgot
tell your neighbors
tell the papers
sing their names out
Can we all just settle down
No one’s trying to take what you desperately found
in a document older than your little town
Still we hold our breath so tight
doing trivial things cause we’re scared that we might
have to live with the fact that we’re not really set for goodbye
Call your mother
warn the cops
call anyone that you forgot
tell your neighbors
tell the papers
sing their names out
Writing notes inside paper bags
Say “I love the most” and take them by the hand
Now they’re frightened to learn, and we can’t understand
this madness
Call your mother
warn the cops
call anyone that you forgot
tell your neighbors
tell the papers
sing their names out
For your posters
and your socials
and the phone calls you haven’t made
tell the neighbors
tell the papers
‘cause we can’t let things stay
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6. |
Happy Again
03:46
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You got married on a Monday
when I was in LA
Isn’t that kind of funny
How things worked out that way
I guess you must have been doing great
maybe I was sad
I guess it must be the best day
that you’ve ever had
You got married on a Monday
when I was in LA
Well maybe it’s not that bad
‘cause I’m learning to be happy again
And maybe it’s just my head
that I’m living in
‘Cause you don’t know me anymore
I confide that I'm not the same as I was before
People change and rearrange
things they thought that they knew before
You don’t know me anymore
Well I got in around midnight
the night before the show
‘Cause California is way too much for me
thought it used to feel like home
I missed the smell of the ocean
the sun on my skin
I miss the beautiful lie I was living in
Yeah I got in around midnight
the night before the show
Well I knew when my time had come I’d
hurry and get out the door
‘Cause waiting never held my heart
And somewhere on the highways lines
I felt like i’d been there before
Coming back to the East Coast just felt right
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7. |
I Want to Know
03:27
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I want to know how it feels to light up
like a firework
On the Fourth of July but I’ll do it
Anytime I want
The feeling of barefoot in the grass
The feeling of never looking back
I want to know how people know how
to do that.
‘Cause I don’t have a clue
But I’ll work it out I’ll work it out
In time
I’ll figure out I’ll figure it out
And I
never know how far I can go
until I’m farther than I’ve been before
Never giving up I guess that’s what I’m waiting for
I wanna know how it feels to never run dry
of things to say and how to play them
and never fall behind
The feeling of sunlight on my face
The feeling of never ever being late
I want to know how people know how
to do that
‘Cause I don’t know what to do
And if you want to tell me well I’m not listening anymore
I know that it’s all on me
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8. |
Boomerang
03:54
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Who are you to tell me that
I made a fool of you
You made a joke of everything I was
and then you couldn’t take the truth
Which was the fact that
you want me to tell you that
I really did you wrong
Now I look back on everything
I’ve tried to get you
out of every song
The first home that I shared
when I walked down the stairs
had the feeling that I got it right
Then you came home at dawn
put your things on the lawn
and you couldn’t tell me why
Just when I let you go
just when I’m feeling free
then you come out of nowhere
back to me
And it’s a cycle
I can’t ever leave
A boomerang
it’s still going
Remember when I called you up
to lay it on the line
I left a voicemail shaky and you called me back
And thought someone had died
I thought it funny that
you acted like no time had ever passed at all
And you were heading west real soon
if it’d be cool then we should find some time
When I walked through the streets
with you right next to me
I remembered Manhattan nights
Where we kissed in the snow
I wanted you to know
I replay it in my mind
When I let you go I like to think I’m better but I’m not
Can’t stop staring at the sky and wondering when you’ll get caught
Oh blame it on the stars if some else’s arms will hold you now
‘cause I’m tired of the game
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9. |
You're Good
03:09
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So you’re saying this is all a rush
and that you didn’t see it happen
but it did so fast you say
it’s not the time
I guess it never was
You’re just like an autumn breeze
I catch my breath but you’re around me
and then just like that
it’s like you never left
But I guess you never did
I’m dreaming of our west side mornings
Alarm clock without a warning
I’m happy you’re good
I’m so happy that you’re good
yeah I’m happy that
you’re good to her.
You’re the same old silhouette
except you must be keeping promises
or else you’d be alone
I’m not the one
I guess I never was
And watching from afar
I’m sad that I was only practice
for your big time love
I knew what you could be
but you’d never let me in
I wonder if you think about me
Remember when she said she loved me
I’m happy you’re good to her
And I wonder what that fall was all about
and I’ve got some things to say to you out loud
When I see you
but I won’t
And I miss you
but I don’t
I wish that I could have the answers from the lies
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10. |
Little Ghost
02:13
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I shouldn’t call if you don’t want to hear me
Like seeing my name on your phone screen
would shut you down
I shouldn’t make my presence known
if you don’t want to know me now
If you had wanted to hear from my side
I’d have guessed you wouldn’t test me
you’d just stop on by
I won’t be waiting by my phone though
if you don’t want to know me this time
Lost in translation
Message failed to send
I didn’t You didn’t need me
thought you might have felt the same
Like all those times you said “forever”
would come crashing back again
But I was selfish
I was helpless
It was all that I could do
to not become a little ghost to you
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